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Last Train Home

from Despedaz​á​ndose by Crushed!?

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Light pollution
I can't see the stars that guide me home
If they're even there I won't ever know
I only have streetlights to feel less alone

Slip out of body
Hover above me like I've always done
And start circling into the unknown
Losing my grip, common sense, I should just let go

Become a ghost
Chemical reactions no longer real
Memories I fabricated for years
Of some signs I misread, reading a dead language

Inevitable
I didn't make the choice to end up here
If I'm being punished for my own sins
I'm leaving on my own terms
No longer dealing with it

A big mistake
Waking up today
Waking up today
When I know exactly what that means
Know exactly what is expected of me

It won't go away
I can't feel the rain
It doesn't feel the same
When it's pouring right in front of my face
Feel more alive in reflection of window panes

Still clinging onto the thought that
It could all be better
Yet still I wince when the weight shifts
And suddenly it doesn't matter

I was so ashamed to be wounded
So I refused to heal
Now I'm choking back all the infection
I no longer feel

Can't seem to shake
This feeling I make
This feeling I hate
Like the path always ends the same
Even when the journeys change
I'm so afraid

All the peaks I've climbed to make it here
Are gone; the rain makes mountains disappear
When will it ever get better
So far it's only gotten worse

Still clinging onto the thought that
It could all be better
Yet still I wince when the weight shifts
And suddenly it doesn't matter

I was so ashamed to be wounded
So I refused to heal
Now I'm finishing pretty much everything
The end is so surreal

So ashamed
Never here
So ashamed
Never heal


Light pollution
I can't see the steps that guide me home
If they're even there I won't ever know
I only have headlights to feel less alone

Slip out of body
Hover above me like I've always done
But this time seems a bit different
Take the step, no more senses, I have to let go

Become a ghost
Chemical reactions no longer there
Memories I'll never get to share
Just some signs I misread, terminal illness

Inevitable
I made the choice to end up here
There's only two ways to forgive sins
I've had my confession and
I'm dealing with it

I was so ashamed to be wounded
So I refused to heal.

So ashamed
Never here
So ashamed
Never heal

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from Despedaz​á​ndose, released January 5, 2021

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Crushed!? Albuquerque, New Mexico

Experimental Post Hardcore from Albuquerque, New Mexico, USA.
We're chaotic and unpredictable, sometimes party a bit to hard, and probably doing sound at the shows we're already playing. Follow us on everything! @crushedisdabomb

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Jake Snider - Guitar
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